date:
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
gosh i'm so damn tired.
was fasting tdy for the weekend service. and had damn many classes! so was really tired. crashed at his place for an hour plus. it was supposed to be a mug-and-mark session (him mugging, me marking) but turned out to be a mug-and snore session. =/
cabbed home cause i didn't want to squeeze in a packed 188. damn. the ride was almost 7 bucks! and it's not like very far la.
so anw, was reading my student's blogs. gosh. almost all of them 12 year old girls are attached! gee the world has changed=/ i only got attached at 16, a more serious one at 18. and now my sec 1 and 2 girls are happily attached=/
marked 1n3's test papers. only 18/39 passed=S only one scored 22.5 upon 25. some between 14-18. abt 8 scored less than 10=/ the lowest mark, 6. sigh i must be a terrible teacher.
some pics!
you and i both=)
ytd after sch, eating at ljs=)
our tatty bear phone charms=)
kayys off to give brother tuition now. i'm tutoring him math and(believe it or not) chinese. bleah. 1.5 hours on mon and wed.ka-ching!! lol=) yes i'm paid.
kaela @
8:09:00 PM
date:
Monday, January 29, 2007
dammit i can't do my slides. i just have no mood to. doesn't help that i'm preparing for tmr's 1n1 SS, the class that totally disses me and acts like monkeys.
the workload is crazy. i'm worrying for their tests, but they don't seem to care.
1n3 has a test tmr, so tdy, i gave them remedial to help them prepare. i even typed a letter fot ehm to notify their parents, and bought ritz for them. but they just wouldn't settle. they went on being rowdy. on mondays,m i have a sucky timetable. i have 2n3, a break which is their recess too, and 5 periods straight back to back. that 1 perid break is just spent preaparing for thee 5 periods ahead. it's so damn exhausting. i can't sit, i have to walk around, i have to yell, and i have to go from table to table to explain, chase them for their work, and make sure they understand and rmb. and after all these, i still wanted to give 1n3 remedial to prepare them for the test. i was alr so exhausted i had to sit on the teacher's table. couldn't get the visualizer or the ppt to work, and they refused to settle. they were either walking around, talking loudly, or just doing begging me to releasr them.i was so frustrated i just slammed the table of the guy in front, and threw my book on the floor. that aught their attention. but the moment i tried to speak, i just felt so exhausted and exasperated, i just started to break down. i tried to holld back my tears, but i couldn't. so i just packed up and left. i told them that all i wanted was to help them get decent grades. but since they didn't want my teaching, since they didn't care, i wouldn't bother either. i couldn't believe 1n3 would be the class to drive me this bad. cause they're one of my faves.
i think it's the sucky timetable, and the pressure of having to handle 9 classes, with all the prepatory work, marking, printing, planning that's driving me nuts. i burn my nights and weekends, but i don't think they appreciate. i'm getting the same pay as a daily basis teacher who just enters and throws worksheets. but the pressure and workload of mine is so much more. and if they don't do well, i feel responsible.
and the classes i have are those that require alot of energy and patience to handle. like2n3 and 2n2, although they aren't rebellious, i really need alot of energy to deal with them. tdy, i had 2n3, a short break where i did printing, and 2 periods of 2n2, one period 1e4, and 3 periods 1n3. it's damn tiring.
but 1n3 came back to look for me and brought me back to class where they begged for forgiveness. and so i resumed teaching. but still, the knowledge of me breaking down in 1n3 burdens me. i don't think i can handle this type of responsibilty. i don't understnad why i have to take 9 classes! yuting and ant only have 4! it's madness! tdy i was comparing my tt to that of a perm staff. and wth la, he only has 2 classes where he teacher them a and e math.
and now, i'm worrying for ther test tmr. i think i'm a terrible teacher.
met pris after sch and we caught babel. weird show. prefer the illusionist. so after we were talking abt what to study in U. it seems to be the common topic nowadays. and i have no idea yet what to do. rushed home to give my brother math tuition till 10. i'm really tired. but i don't eally have a choice anymore. i'm don't even know what i want.
i'm a messed up person. i just wished i had a little direction. i just wished i had more energy so i can pay more attention to the 380 strong students i have under me.
kaela @
11:45:00 PM
date:
Sunday, January 28, 2007
very quickly the weekend has come to a close again. met sher tdy,
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!rescued eun from a bad date too=)
burned my entire weekend doing slides, marking, quiz and ans, lesson planning etc. =/ i'm gg to apply for a
pay increment. SERIOUS!
i was so exhausted i was almost sleeping in service tdy=/ and was really listleess for the rest of the day outside. crashed the moment i got home, and only got up awhile ago, so i missed dinner=/
oh yup,
leader of the band is a great song=) very old, jazzy feeling=D
oh gosh. my thoughts are all over the place. i don't want the week to begin=/ i'm just looking forward to the next weekend=/ cheers guys, stay healthy~ =)
kaela @
11:15:00 PM
date:
Artist: Dan Fogelberg
Album: The Innocent Age
Title: Leader Of The Band
An only child
Alone and wild
A cabinet maker's son
His hands were meant
For different work
And his heart was known
To none --
He left his home
And went his lone
And solitary way
And he gave to me
A gift i know i never
Can repay
A quiet man of music
Denied a simpler fate
He tried to be a soldier once
But his music wouldn't wait
He earned his love
Through discipline
A thundering, velvet hand
His gentle means of sculpting souls
Took me years to understand.
The leader of the band is tired
And his eyes are growing old
But his blood runs through
My instrument
And his song is in my soul --
My life has been a poor attempt
To imitate the man
I'm just a living legacy
To the leader of the band.
My brothers' lives were
Different
For they heard another call
One went to chicago
And the other to st. paul
And i'm in colorado
When i'm not in some hotel
Living out this life i've chose
And come to know so well.
I thank you for the music
And your stories of the road
I thank you for the freedom
When it came my time to go --
I thank you for the kindness
And the times when you got tough
And, pap, i don't think i
Said 'i love you' near enough --
The leader of the band is tired
And his eyes are growing old
But his blood runs through
My instrument
And his song is in my soul --
My life has been a poor attempt
To imitate the man
I'm just a living legacy
To the leader of the band
I am the living legacy
To the leader of the band.
Thank you gary for the song :) not YOU
kaela @
3:15:00 AM
date:
Saturday, January 27, 2007
okays this is so way overdue, but i've been really busy! better late than never!
ZOO TRIP!!!
13 jan 2007
one day before 10 months=)
me and my d.
posing with the b& j cow!
i think i look fat here=/
haha like a true blue explorer=)
the white tiger story..
so once there were 2 white tigers lounging under the sun
the 3rd tiger, was doing some form of exercise (shitting)
so one tiget finally got up and yelled "can't you see Shu's here to take our picture? quite shiiting and get yourass over!!"
and so tiger 3 did, very much obediently.
and that's where i managed to finally take a pic of all 3 white tigers=)
beautiful, aren't they?
initially, we thought it was fake cause it was so still. till it BLINKED.
BABOONS! remind me somewhat of my students=P
yes i think it was over-congestion.
hey polar bears sleep pretty much like my brother!
camels. remind me of the one i saw in Turkey.
oh which reminds me i have yet to post turkey pics up yet=/ drats.
on the tram=)
some orang laut.
this guy pulled this damn huge snake out of a box that was behind us.
BALANCE.
back-flip!
haha i don't know why his eyes are closed!
all smiles=)
yuan spotted it! damn cute=)
ELEPHANT SHOW!!!
haha taking a self-proclaimed break to soak=)
gambe pushing a log into the water~
log lifting!
roll over and play dead!
i so love horses <3>
it's so small! i swear the sign above said 'miniature horses'
awww... so cute~ the kid feeding the lamb=)
haha head-to-head butt!!
pigs=)
colouful bird~
black boar.
horse!!
horse again!
wonder who taught them to coil up that way
python
komodo dragon~
orang utans. so cute!
happy feet stars!
penguins having a dip~
it wasn't caged. or chained.
manatee~ big and gentle=)
rhino!!
deer!
zebra!
meerkats!
giraffe!
lions~ the male one looks damn old.
tribal council. who will be voted out, tonight?
fake elephants
at the bus stop
tenten haning from my bed=) His is called zoo.
oh yes. we had KFC there~
HAPPY 10 MONTHS DARLING!!
the nachos wasn't half-bad! =)
PS. for those of you who haven't been to the zoo for ages, please go! we spent like... 6 hours there? lol. serious! and get the tram ticks, cause you can catch the shows on time quickly=)
kaela @
9:54:00 PM